Judge

Assalamualaikum and hi! I feel like writing today but extremely sleepy too. So it's not gonna be as long as usual, but here we go!

Judging. Everybody does that. The problem with people is that everyone judges everyone. No one is good enough. Everybody should realise by now that we're all the same. Everyone makes fun of other people. Can't deny that. But we should all know our limit. 

1. Appearance

This one pisses me off the most. You can never judge someone based on their physical appearances. We should always remember, we don't get choose how we look. Why should we make fun of others when their face and body are clearly what God has give them? If a girl's body is flat, don't make fun of her. I'm pretty sure she's very insecure of herself too and there's nothing she can do about her body. If a guy's body isn't muscular, don't judge him. In a few years, he might get hotter. If a girl's body is too skinny, she has probably tried to eat more and worked really hard to gain weight. If a guy is fat or chubby, he might have been trying to lose weight and he's probably crying himself to sleep as he's really insecure of his own body. 

2. Self-harm 

Self-harming is a dangerous thing. It is related to suicide and suicidal depression. A few of my girl friends cut themselves. And it's not impossible for guys to self-harm too. People self-harm because of the overwhelming stress could get to the point where their heart bleeds more than their hand/thigh/anywhere they cut. If someone's hand is full of scars and cuts, don't judge. Show your care and whatever nice. Everybody deserves attention and love. 

3. Race

This happens a lot like literally everywhere. As we all know, Malaysia has a lot of race and many differences between each race. Chinese people have narrow eyes. The Indians have dark skin. Malays? I don't know what symbolizes us as the Malay people. But, why should we make fun of the Indians who have dark skin and the Chinese who have narrow eyes? They did not ask to be born with those features. They were born that way. And I genuinely think that those things are the things that makes us different and special. A lot of my Indian friends are very kind and friendly. My Chinese friends are highly intelligent and extremely smart. 

4. Ability

Everybody in this world has their own talent and their specialty in something. Never judge someone when they are bad at something. They could be good in something you're really bad at. Remember, everyone is different. For example, I suck really bad at sports and my studies. But  I can draw and write. And my cooking is not that bad to be honest. My friend sucks really bad at drawing but she's an athlete and she can sing really well. 

"Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing it is stupid." -Albert Einstein 

5. I don't know but nobody deserves to be treated badly, to be honest. 

Changes

Assalamualaikum and hi. 

It's been such a long long time since the last time I updated this blog. It's like 6 am and I'm not asleep because I can't sleep. 

2016 is just around the corner. A new year, new beginnings for some people. Next year's gonna be tough as heck. I've got a big exam coming up and I'm really not ready for it. I'm just afraid that I might disappoint my parents though. 

To be really honest, life is really knocking me down right now. I have tons and tons of problems that I really can't figure out on how to solve them. 

Let me tell you. 

2015 has gave me bunch of experiences. I've learned a lot. Life isn't easy and it'll knock the shit out of you. But guess what? All of us have endured it. 

I've lost a few friends. Some really close friends that have been there for me for a long time. And I've been there for them too, most of the time. They told me that they hated me. And it truly hurts, it bothers, but I didn't let it control me. A few of my good friends that I've lost this year told me that I've changed. It's true, damn true. I've changed. Pain changes people. Experiences make people think differently. 

This year, I did went through lots of heart-breaking experiences. Been judged a lot, lost a lot of amazing people in my life. I've been insecure ever since. I kept asking myself, what did I do? What the heck did I do to deserve all these bullshit? Everything I did seems wrong.  

After those things linger in my mind for a long time, I finally thought of something different. I thought, why do I have to care what people think of me? Why should I be unhappy just because of some people that does not appreciate me? Why should I take the opinion of people that doesn't care about my well being? 

I keep telling myself, nothing lasts forever. Nothing. Including my sadness. It won't last that long. In the future, I probably won't even remember all these stuffs. So, instead of being sad and devastated, I told myself that I shouldn't care. If people like me, they will stay. If they don't, they are absolutely allowed to walk away from my life. I won't beg and force people to stay just because I want them to. If they don't want me, then I shouldn't bother to want them either. And it worked. And right now, I don't care, at all. And I'm happier. Just because they're not here, that doesn't mean I'm lonely. I have myself. And as long as I'm happy, I'll be alright. 

But don't get me wrong. I still have feelings. I did cry every time when I thought about those things. I'm a human too. After you've done with your pain, you should just let it all go. Let it go. Oops Elsa love it. (I get distracted easily) Never hold onto your pain, ever. Just let it be, let it flow. When you've had enough, it's enough. No more. 

Once you let go of your pain, you'll be happier. Trust me. Don't burden yourself. Don't overthink. Don't be insecure. You'll be fine once you let all your hard feelings go. They won't be there forever. Why not let it go now?

Don't care if people hate you. If you're happy, then it's safe to say that you're doing such a good job on ignoring those negative things. If people told you that you've changed, then just be the one that you are. Don't try to change yourself just because people don't like the new you. If you like who you are, then be yourself. Don't let people define who you really are. If you know who you are, be you. Then you'll be happy. 

Stop That.

Assalamualaikum and hi guys! 

Today, something happened in my Science class. We went into a room, i don't know what's the name but we watched some slideshows sorta thing from a laptop. And when the class almost ended, a few of my classmates asked the teacher to open the google image to search something. A picture of one of my classmates. He was absent though. 

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY THE TEACHER WAS FOLLOWING WHAT THEY WANTED EVEN THOUGH SHE SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER. The picture had nothing funny to laugh at. They were making fun of him. 

That made me extremely mad. Yes, I did try to stop them but they won't listen. The picture was fine, but when they laughed at it, I felt like slapping each and every one of them. It's because it's such an embarrassment. I get it, i know how it feels to have people betray you and stab behind your back and laugh at you without you knowing anything, not a single clue. I know how it feels like. 

As example, that guy you laughed at, you don't know what he's going through. His parents could be divorced, maybe his brother hit him, his grandfather maybe fell sick, or he could be an orphan. 

The girl you made fun of, her friends could be ignoring her, her boyfriend maybe is cheating on her, her sister probably died yesterday, she could be cutting herself, or she could be depressed.

Do you even know all that stuffs? NO! Why? BECAUSE YOU'RE GODDAMN SELFISH. That's why you should stop being such a jerk and try to at least care a bit! If only you know how it feels like, then you may talk about it. Tell me if it's good or bad to have people talk behind you, make fun of you, laugh at you, and all the stuff every human hates. 

You should stop talking behind people's back, stop that. Everyone has our own dark secret.

Imagine, there's this one big secret you want to keep between you and your "so-called best friend" ONLY. And the next day, the whole school knows about it. So, how do you feel about it? 

So embarrassed that you wish you could dig a huge hole and bury yourself. So embarrassed that you want to transfer to another school. So embarrassed that you feel like committing suicide. So embarrassed that you hope to make yourself disappear. 

Change your attitude. Stop all those things. I know even me myself, I can't escape from making sins and lots of bad stuffs. I'm not even perfect but "Aslih nafsak wad'u ghairak." It means "Purify yourself and preach others." or "Improve yourself and ask other people to do the same."

Stop with all those bad talking about other people. I can't stand it. Please, for the sake of Allah and ourselves.

"If a servant, covers the shame of another servant, on the Day of Judgment Allah will cover their shame." [Muslim, Al-Birr (Virtue); 72]

Even God says that He will cover the shame of a servant. So, who do you think you are? We are all human beings, everyone has feelings. You, me, your friend, my neighbour, our teachers, the cleaners. We are all the same, wake up and realize that.